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so, there's cheryl. she lived in delaware--down the road from this shy girl who rode horses, named abby. and when she went to church she made friends with heather. she rode the school bus with chris and later she went to high school & met tim. eventually cheryl went to college and kim lived across the hall. during the summertime she became close friends with krissy, even though they had gone to high school together. during another summer cheryl introduced chris and kim online. uhem. cheryl's circles had crossed, intertwined, collided! so cheryl moved to maryland and married jamie. heather and tim got married and had babies and got stationed in north carolina, then okinawa. abby moved to florida, then pennsylvania. chris moved to kansas and is finally moving back. kim stayed put in maryland. krissy went upstate to college. we'll see what happens from there...
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:: Saturday, September 14, 2002 :: i think it's really hard to type in your own voice--like, i know how i am talking in my head, but someone else could read it and take it the wrong way...that's the only problem with this thing--it's hard to type your voice....i always feel like i'm yelling if i write in all caps, but most of the time i'm just emphasizing--this thing just doesn't have italics capabilities (that i know of...i guess i could put my blog in html, but damn that would suck to have to do...) i just wanted to let you all know that if i sound angry or defensive, chances are i don't mean to be...you could definately tell if i'm mad 'cause i think i'd just say it outright! :) (or avoid the situation all together--you know me!):: Friday, September 13, 2002 :: woo-hoo! rock on girl! how was your concert? oh my!!! I didn't realize how much I had missed!!! just a quick hello to all of you who are new to our blog! ally, my buddy from wac; colleen, krissy's pal; & kathleen, my favorite roomate from wac--hopefully i'll get a minute to add you guys to the description on the website! welcome!! feel free to chat about whatever. even to add amusing or thoughtful quotes for us to ponder! anything goes! as long as were not fussing at each other! :) wow! it is "fun" to have so much input and discussion on here! that's what it's for! abby--none of us judge you or anyone else on here! that's what's so good about it! (you know part of me was screaming at you, though--but only b/c i love you so much! i think that if you've been friends since 1st grade, you're allowed to laugh when someone says something utterly rediculous! *wink*) what krissy said is absolutely true! NONE OF US TAKE OUR OWN ADVICE!! it's like a rule or something...not to beat emily's horse to death (but it is the pressing issue of the moment)...i can't agree with heather about not giving advice (it's in my nature! i'm a fixer!), though, because of what krissy said. in the end, i know we will do what we want. however--i think that other people's points of view offer perspective. even heather's stand to not tell you what to do gives us all perspective about unconditional love, which was something that struck me in your writing emmy--"Our love was unconditional....at least from my end." i think you're very insightful to say this. it answers YOUR OWN questions about what you should do. . .while what heather said is true--you know him the best out of all of us--you also seem to understand (i'm getting this from your first vent about him) that others of us love(d?) him too. i honestly believe that i could have loved him unconditionally. wow--i just wrote that for everyone to read--but i think the main thing that stopped me (no, it wasn't scott) was that i knew i wouldn't get it in return. abs, i hope you didn't think i was judging you in any way with the summer '97 reference. i was alluding to the fact that i knew that he hooked up with you, your friend heather, along with myself that summer...i think we were all pretty scared and unsure about what the future held and that it was something we all needed, but now we've realized that it might not have been the healthiest thing to do! (i think we've kind of pinpointed that he still hasn't figured this out!) overall, i don't mean to be badmouthing him or anyone in any way. hopefully anything i said, other than the pompous ass nickname we seem to love giving him, can be taken with a grain of salt and seen as constructive and insightful. but then again, if someone calls you a pompous ass...maybe you should take heed and see if you're actually being one! put THAT in your pipe and smoke it...then stick it up your ass!!! (wow-what a very fredman ending! go on now git!):: Thursday, September 12, 2002 :: somtimes i thoroughly amuse myself. and that's even more important than amusing others. but that feels good too! dr. cheryl continued...i think you answered your own question about what you should do. seeing him everyday just to play games/mess with his mind will hurt you thoroughly and you'll probably take him back. you don't deserve either of these things! first things first--continue with therapy--you've got to fix the mom stuff, it affects the rest of your life. so does your health---EAT and eat well!! life's uncertain--eat dessert first! i don't care if your mom thinks you're fat at 115 and size 6!!! you know when you feel and look good! if that's at 165 and a size 14, then rock on! you look great! (now i need to take my own advice...) just treat yourself the same way you want others to treat you! go ahead and beat yourself down if you want to be stepped upon! GIRL POWER! HA! :) that's advice for everyone! (back to randy, i thought that he had grown up and changed a little--into the college randy--but really that's the randy he used to let me see while we were in high school. the one that treats you kindly because he needs the love and healthy attention. it was only when he was around everyone else that he morphed into "egotistical pompous ass man" (we should start a comic book). that's why i could be happy for the two of you--he seemed himself (to me--everyone else thought he changed) when you two were together. i think he just lost himself again (and i think he'd agree with me on that.) now, he also thinks you should wait around for him to figure himself out. emmy, that could take days, weeks, or years! if we learned anything last september, it's that anything can happen at anytime to anybody! now, God does things for a reason, but damn wouldn't it suck if he wanted to get randy straightened out by exploding you!?!? live for today! love a lot! love yourself! be amused by piddly things! giggle! enjoy life! don't get cynical! go to kmart and hide in the fake trees! don't be stingy with hugs or compliments! ok, now i'm preachin'....but you know me, i'm animated! waka waka waka! fozzie bear signing off.... oh my dear, dear emmy! i think you're the last person on earth that i would have wanted this to happen to! (not that i want it to happen to anyone! especially the rest of you--aw hell, you know what i mean!) NOT that i can step back and be impartial in any way...but i think randy's got problems. i mean, we've all got problems, but some of us are willing to work on them. (i'm seeing a therapist, too emmy--and it's all about my mom--are you sure we weren't separated at birth somehow? every time we talk i feel more and more like i really do have a little sister!) it seems that when his life is feeling unsure and he doesn't know what to do--he seeks female (sexual) companionship...now, i'm not freud...it just seems to be a pattern with him. (does anyone remember the summer of '97--abby!?!) it's all linked to our mothers. and the fact that he felt threatened by you wanting to have a relationship with yours, emmy, just means that he obviously has issues with his in some way. he thought that he could replace her or at least be better at mothering you than she could. and maybe some of that's true, but there shouldn't be competition. that's the problem with most mother-in-laws--they're competing:: Wednesday, September 11, 2002 :: i think you express things wonderfully yeah, i think this thing's on pacific b/c that where the server is...just ignore it. the other emily is "new emily"--remember? from a few summers ago? yeah, the dixie chicks named themselves after the little feat song b/c they liked it so much! :)
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